Life's bittersweet ecstasy


Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. ― Rumi

The tears have been flowing all week long. I know I'm in a vulnerable space right now. Instead of suppressing or trying to "work through it" I am rolling with it and what I am discovering is, while uncomfortable, there is another layer of Ecstasy when we are pressed up against our deepest vulnerabilities.

It would be easy to think, "I've been thru this" and want a different response to life and the things that trigger me but then I realize, this is it!!

This vulnerability is LIFE moving through me, unobstructed.

The way music reaches me, the holding space for dear friends who've lost a loved one, witnessing artists lit up as they share their gifts, remembering how little 3 year old heart felt when my birth mother left ~ ~ these are all landing on my soul so deeply.

It's bittersweet ecstasy leaning into humanity, witness the beauty in the pain, Feeling life AS IT IS. 

What we are processing in "the work" are the barriers Rumi speaks about, which is really about allowing the ecstasy of LIFE to move through us.

LOVE is all there is.

Feeling reveals the multi-spectrum self. Feeling does not imply reacting. Feeling does not mean that we have to be ruled by them. We are not our feelings and yet, feeling allows energy within us (and around us) to move. Through feeling, we witness LIFE moving through us, and this can be a beautiful & ecstatic experience.

The beauty is witnessing our feeling self emerge in ourselves and others, with acceptance, knowing that there is nothing to hide change or fix. Under the layers of anger, resentment and bitterness is profound tenderness, beauty, peace and an expanding Reverence for this wild ride we call life.

If we can stay Present and feel it ALL....our Ecstatic Radiant Presence naturally unfolds.

We can trust in this unfolding, just as we trust the blossoms naturally unfold each spring.